Day 9 without Marvin Tan
moody , ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi ,
saw your post , really shocked.
i thought you never see this blog
so i can post every single shit i'm feeling.
but well ,
your post brought a smile to my face.
tyvm .
idk why i couldn't sleep well every night
since you went for taiwan.
when the day is getting nearer for you to come back ,
it got worse ,
i'm wide awake till 8 or 9 am.
but i'm fine ,
i survived 9 days without you .
though i may cry but i'm sure , i'm coping well
cause i'm chlovelle , strong & tough .
i fear & anticipate for day 10 to arrive.
cause i rmb before you left to taiwan ,
you told me you want to be real self.
i fear to see the real marvin tan.
the marvin tan that i never see before ,
even before day 1 we know each other.
i fear to see that marvin tan that idk ,
it's gonna feel so strange if you behave
like how you're last time ,
how you told me what a person you're
way back before i know you ,
i rmb every single thing about you , i guess so.
though i miss you much ,
yearning to see you , hear you , feel you ,
but deep down , i'm afraid of the changed you.
i even thought of avoiding you so you wouldn't have
the chance to treat me cold & fierce like how you did
to your ex girlf ,
i was totally clueless about what to do ,
until just now ,
i think throughly ,
i decide to still continue to meet you ,
& accept whatever changes you made
for i love you for who you are.
unless you cross the line & i snap then that's it.
and you know what , i repent & realize what went wrong ,
i made changes ,
i changed back to that a lil gentle chlovelle , understanding girlf
that you always longed for.
even zewei said i changed gentle ,
hahaaa!
i told you to mark my words ,
use your eyes to see when you come back.
i'll treat you better than the way i treat you
before you left.
cause i refresh my memories &
hate the chlovelle that's not good enough for you.
and i went safra with shuchuan around 10pm ,
played pool with poh chai , weijie , shuchuan
zewei joined around 11 plus ,
around 1230 , bus 145 to redhill mrt ,
no more bus then zewei walked me home ,
reached home around 110.
going church later .
baby m , I miss you when something really good happens,
because you're the one I want to share it with.
I miss you when something is troubling me,
because you're the only one who understands me so well.
I miss you when I laugh and cry,
because I know that you're the one who makes
my laughter grow and my tears disappear.
I miss you all the time,
but I miss you the most when I lie awake throughout the night
and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other
for those were some of the best memorable times of my life.
you're the only one that comes to my mind when i'm down & alone.
