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8th , losing you = losing everything .

i complaint that you're fiercer to me nowadays .
you pushed away my hand telling me that you won't
scold me ,
restrict me ,
force me , you said you want eat you eat , don't eat then be it/
you want do anything , go do.
to me , it's like telling me indirectly that you don't love me anymore ,
you don't care anymore.
i beg you like i never did , even to my parents .
you just don't care.
i chase after you ,
si can lan da to stop you for leaving me for good.
i never once imagine myself doing that.
maybe it's because last time , it's my ex doing that ,
so now it's revenge ,
till now then i realise i cannot lose you ,
you told me , "14 may , i marvin tan , want to leave you , chlovelle tan . be it i cruel or what , don't touch me , let go of me , you push my hand away , take it as i break promise , i want to leave. "
i was really lost ,
it's was really painful ,
i asked shuchuan ,
how ?
i lost everything ,
this is the first time i felt that losing my boyf = losing everything ,
i rmb telling people losing boyf is not the end of the world ,
but yet that was what i felt when i lost you ,
you're the first i felt this way ,
maybe i grow up & understand what's love.
idk too.
i only know i don't want to lose you , never.
then you went off with yingrong
and came back ,
i don't know why i can't face you ,
i was really afraid that you would say we're over.
till now , i'm still afraid ,
marvin tan , you're the first guy i would change for , not even my parents,
you're the first that make me si can lan da ,
you're the first that make me take down my fierce mask ,
you're the first that make me leave my pride for you,
i know this time , i'm really into you ,
totally that i can't lose you ,
only you ,
marvin tan huan jin.